its been a while since i last heard from you ..

I just want to say that I miss u so much. Take care sister.. and selamat hari raya to you.

love, kakdek

balik kampung . .

ye.. i admit, aku memang malas nak menaip kat sini. as you can see, my last post has been what.. a month? maybe 2 months? ah, i dunno. i don't know what's the point of blogging, really.. (in my case only lah hehe) no offense dear friends, i loveee & loveee reading and peeping your blog. Is blog supposed to be a diary? but why people can read my diary? or maybe i don't know what to write/how to put it in words or i guess my life is just plain boring. i know i might sound stupid but really.. i was so malas. hmm, give me sometime.. see howlah,maybe i will do something about it. maybe deleting this blog would be a nice idea :) but i guess everyone has their own story to tell and for now i rest my case.

ok, since i don't know what to update walaupun recently i faced an incident where me and my colleagues have been investigated by MCMC's officer for no fucking reason, (no need for me to explain since you can read it in news) i just want to wish y'all Selamat hari raya! I'm off to Kuch on 14th until 27th Sept. Yeah i know, lama kan? weeeee.. i'll be missing my fahmy so much. take care love. :)

It's been 5 years already. dah lama gua tak balik kampung halaman. rindu? nah..Kuch is not my real hometown. I would say kedah is my real hometown & kuching belongs to my mum. but sadly, nothing much we have in kedah now.. semua org dah takde.people that i knew passed away, their sons and daughters happily married and moved on to the big city and the youngsters.. gua bukan kenal pun. I guess we're not coming back.. there's nothing left there. so, yeah Kedah will remain as it is, a place in my heart that i shall never forget.

oklah. c u guys soon. salam aidilfitri.

xoxo. wakakaka!

*starting from today, i would sign off with xoxo just to annoy u guys especially u belle! haha!

goodbye love, you'll always be here, in my heart

Yasmin Ahmad (1958-2009) *pic google

I'm not fully recover to the fact that she's gone but i was relieved when i think of the opposite side, at least she didn't suffer the pain too long. I guess,God take all the good people with HIM this month, one after another,and this time its her's.it was a big lost tp..aku redha with what HE up there, plan for us. This note is nothing special-nothing ordinary, but i just want to share on what i feel about her.

Back from Kuala Terengganu, first thing i heard from Leeps is that Yasmin Ahmad has passed away. i couldn't feel anything, i guess my heart stop for a while. i couldn't get my eyes to sleep but tears keep running of my face.woke up next morning and hope it was just a bad dream until it was confirmed when i saw the bulletin news at 130 that noon.it was hard to believe that she left us too soon.

Secara jujurnya, i don't know her that well, meet her few times at film screening, religiously follow her blog since 2006..feel like knowing her luar dalam (by reading her blog?u must be insane? :P) but never spoke to her whenever i had the chance to.haih.. go blame the starstruck and butterflies in my stomach... but when she's gone, she did left a big hole in my heart.

its like losing a great inspiration that hurt me the most.

Despite all the mourning and cry, i guess life has to go on with or without her. She has taught us a lot..a great crafts that touches every human soul, a beautiful song, a meaning of life and i guess what she want us to do now is to cherish every moment in our life and share it with others without any prejudice. clearly, we can see all that through her works.

Bak kata Roul, my friend - "Allah pinjamkan dia.... utk kita belajar dan memahami... and He thinks it's done... we can think on our own..."

al-fatihah. tenanglah kamu disana, you'll always be missed.

before that, i pinjam and dedicate this song to you :)

tired & wasted

i was too tired to walk, eat or even speak.i just want to lay down and listen to fav song. that's all I need now. so, can I go back early, boss?

Rest in Peace, MJ

this is so cute. i think semua rehab centre or jail (maybe) should consider taking this activities as one of their programmes. maybe this could result to zero case of bullying in the centre. maybe they don't have time to bully each other. maybe.

i was browsing you tube, checking on MJ's video and stumble up with this cute video. i started enjoying this craze dance after i watched '13 going 30' and not because of MJ himself. haha. i remember when i was young, I'm afraid of watching 'thriller' video clip on tv. aku sgt takut dengan hantu/zombie/pocong/u named it... dari kecik sampai besar.

The world is still in shocked today by the sudden death of Micheal Jackson, the King of Pop. i myself can't believe the news this morning, i thought ami was joking. who joke about death anyway? everybody in the office is sad and mourn. belle said to me just now that she listened to MJ when she was young, singing and dancing to MJ's thriller repetitively sampai cd rosak. haha. mine is different, i listen to him when i grew up. i started dancing this craze dance of thriller when i get the chance. and i will not give up to dance again although you're gone. rest in peace MJ. we love you.

outdated issue, saya malas . . .

dah siap, pegi beli.. murah je

excited lebih :)

ceh! semua orang pura2 rajin berkerja bila i tangkap gambar

ariz pura2 buat kerja sambil memgelat tengok tv

si tukang cop + tukang masak

si tukang lipat + tukang cuci

tgh berselerak, tukang cuci pemalas . . . taknak kemas

finally,siap jugak akhirnya. phew!

packed and ready to go!

chaca nisha and nana pura2 ngantuk

ami sleepy + tak buat keja + asyik tido ja

The Good Body

" I am stepping off the capitalist treadmill. I am going to take a deep breath and find a way to survive not being flat or perfect. I am inviting you to join me, to stop trying to be anything, anyone other than who you are. I was moved by women in Africa who lived close to the earth and didn't understand what it meant to not love their body. I was lifted by older women in India who celebrated their roundness. I was inspired by Marion Woodman, a great Jungian analyst, who gave me confidence to trust what I know. She has said that “instead of transcending ourselves, we must move into ourselves.” Tell the image makers and magazine sellers and the plastic surgeons that you are not afraid. That what you fear the most is the death of imagination and originality and metaphor and passion. Then be bold and LOVE YOUR BODY. STOP FIXING IT. It was never broken"

- Eve Ensler, The Good Body