fb oh fb

annoyed bila pg wedding, ramai sgt photog wannabes, among of those including my own brother and cousin! usually, lepas i snap their pic, they will said, jgn lupa tag dalam facebook ye.

pfft! semua facebook punya fasal.they take pictures to be cool,dan untuk ditag dalam facebook, and its a trend to have dslr nowadays. no, i don't have problem if you like to take pictures, or if u have super expensive cool camera or you want to take pictures so that u can upload it on fb because i also do it..all im saying is pleaselah stop jadi poyo..

the example of the conversation between those 'poyo' people with me. "pergh, tgk ni.. gempak habis gambar aku amek.."-and you said it 3 times! sekali ckup la kau ckp ko gempak.. *lepas snap pic, look at it and said, "gile arh, aku memang best photographer dowh" halllooo, it's not you that make the pictures lawa k. it's the technology of the camera. memang la gambar tu nice because of the depth and all tp composition kau out habes-berterabur and you call yourself a great photographer? you should be ashamed. and again, semua ni pasal facebook! *jgn lupa tag i dalam fb k!! pfft!!

heh. aku tak tau pasal apa aku annoyed sgt.mostly because i hate those wannabes and maybe i just hate yesterday's wedding.don't make me start.. *the wedding suck!, there i said it.. heh.

ballads of 7th day of ramadhan

i can smeeeellll... what my mom is cooking! (shout ala the rock) ok, hari ini hari yang ke-7 berpuasa.mak masak bubur lambuk bau dia harum semerbak.can't wait to bukak puasa. hehe. btw, i just came back from batu pahat 2 days ago. it was fun being with fmy's family when you can request whatever you want to eat. and i request to eat batu pahat's famous beriyani - seriously i don't know why is this sudden obsession with beriyani.i don't really fancy beriyani on normal days, except for kenduri but now.. i can say im craving for it every weeks. sometimes, i will drag fmy to jalan tar just to eat insaf's famous beriani. and we do have it now in damansara- expensive restaurant called JM beriyani. hmm, i can't even spell it right. is it beriyani, or brayani or beryani? heh,i don't know. anyway we went to this beriyani stall called mohd shah bariani situated near the bridge over the Batu Pahat river. fmy recommend this place. when we arrive at 4pm, the pot is almost empty. naseb baik sempat. ok enjoy the photos that i goggled.






well, i can say that the beriyani that we ate so-so je la. lauk sedap but nasi beriyani tu kureng sikit. too oily, hard and tasteless even fmy's family said so. i bet maybe because its ramadhan kot. no one to taste or even care about the quality control. hehe. but nevertheless, i will still request for it when we go back nanti. maybe try tempat lain pulak ka.. and the price is unbelievable. its way too cheap compared to kl's beriyani. who can give you rm5 for nasi beriyani with chicken and rm6 for nasi beriyani with mutton here? nada. only in batu pahat.its finger licking good! :)

ini tahun lepas punya harga, kalau harga ini mcm, hari2 sy makan beriyani!

Karma Police

I totally in love with this song and its melody, but I don't really understand the meaning behind it. Karma Police? Moral Police? Isn't it the same? I think it is a very sarcastic song. Its like we live in a society where things like freedom of expression and freedom of speech aren't allowed. and you'll also be judge and arrest because of your Hitler hairdo? wtf? oi oi dilarang melarang!!

Anyway,thanks thom yorke, suara kau memang indah :D

Karma police, arrest this man
He talks in maths
He buzzes like a fridge
He's like a detuned radio

And for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself

I'm the CEO of my life

If you ask me, where do I see myself in 5 or 10 years, I would frankly said I don't know. “I don’t know what I want to do in life, all I know is that it isn’t this.”

What do you want to do with your life? It’s a question almost everyone asks themselves. It’s also a question I don’t believe you should bother asking in the first place.Because you wouldn't find the answer. unless u pretty sure what you want in life.

I believe everybody have passion in their lives, what do they want to do and to became. As for me, my passion change through time. i used to dream of became a writer, journalist, dancer, film director, and vampire. eh? did i say vampire. haha. not. i would rather die than being immortal. I'll be fucking lonely! takmo! and yeah back to the question, now I'm trap. now I really need to start deciding on what to do and what not to do in life. i have to learn to choose..

hmm, its tough tho'. i still can't find the answer... to be continued

hey you..

sorry about yesterday. it won't happen again. I promise :)

shit that ruined my day

sigh. kenapalah you suka sangat ruined my morning? congratulations lah to you. sebab you dah berjaya buat i rasa sebal macam sial.

almost the end of the year

It's almost the end of the year.I think it's the time for me to make a career move or maybe pg lepak dan takyah kerja since I'm no longer needed here. eceh! who said so? ye, my boss said so. heee.... no lah he just told me that my contract with this company will end of this year.so, he ask me what am i going to do next year? wow. I don't know. i didn't think of it before.. full time housewife perhaps, boss? but am not married yet, so how to become a full time housewife lah? hehe.

hmm.... i think I'm no longer interested to do this anymore. I'm tired. maybe i don't have passion in film making and documentary anymore.. I want to do what i love the most.. tpi ada ke kerja camtu. entahlah, i have negative things in my mind now,i feel tired and wasted, i don't know why, is it because of the routine that i have to face everyday..? ah lydia! wake up!

ah cepatlah dtg ooo blissful rainy weekend so that i can sleep all day!! come love, i need you so bad. :( :(

2012

its 2012 movie premiere, all malaysiakini staff have the chance to be the first one to watch it. everybody gets so excited because even like this julung2 kali diadakan.
anyway, thanks to my colleagues. Shyam, joanna and first floor team for organizing this movie premiere. so yeah. a little review about the film. maybe you'll feel diff from me but this is what i feels so far lah about this film.

and so... i hate the movie. heh. its exaggerate everything. ok, the CGI,the effects, the HD is so perfect except for the last part where it looks like watching tv drama (i don't know why HD would turn out to be worst like this) but, the storyline is suck! suck and i say it twice because its totally suck. forget the science behind 2012, what the mayans predict.. or how greedy human being can be.. but this film is unacceptable. come on lah, the logic behind it is zero. i hope it end of the world. meaning end of the world lah kan? I don't know what the christian people believes. Is there any reincarnation stated in the bibles? entah i don't think so.so I'm not sure.
but if there a reincarnation in the future as shown in this film,the world will be fulls of keturunan tamak haloba, kaya nak mampos, snobbish & bastards. i don't want to spoiled this, watch it first and you'll understand what i'm saying.

for me, 2012 isn't so much a disaster movie, it more like an adventures one.. e.g indiana jones. wah, bukan main lagi John Cusack jadi hero film, semua dia teror.. nasib baik dia tak reti bawak plane. hehe. speaking about disaster movie , i prefers war of the world, although its full of sci-fi fiction in it, about aliens lah.. but at least its logic. erm lagi, mcm tsunami (a korean film ) and The Happening. tu baru true disaster movie.

but i'm not surprised if the US government (who rules the world) will made a similar ship as shown in the movie to save themselves. entah2 tgh buat pun.ngee.The ship, somehow made me remember of Noah's Ark. i don't know where they refer to lah, bibles perhaps.. but the concept is quite similar to it. so people, if you don't have 1 billion US dollar, don't ever dream to be in that ship. ;)

quote of the day

People should not be afraid of their governments, government should be afraid by their people - V

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thank you, for managed to ruin my morning. fuck ah weh. fuck aaaa!!!
harini aku takde mood untuk apa apa pon. all i want to do know is sleep and not think of anything.I'm tired. broke. gila. not positive, yes i am. aaaaaaaaaa!!!!

its been a while since i last heard from you ..

I just want to say that I miss u so much. Take care sister.. and selamat hari raya to you.

love, kakdek

balik kampung . .

ye.. i admit, aku memang malas nak menaip kat sini. as you can see, my last post has been what.. a month? maybe 2 months? ah, i dunno. i don't know what's the point of blogging, really.. (in my case only lah hehe) no offense dear friends, i loveee & loveee reading and peeping your blog. Is blog supposed to be a diary? but why people can read my diary? or maybe i don't know what to write/how to put it in words or i guess my life is just plain boring. i know i might sound stupid but really.. i was so malas. hmm, give me sometime.. see howlah,maybe i will do something about it. maybe deleting this blog would be a nice idea :) but i guess everyone has their own story to tell and for now i rest my case.

ok, since i don't know what to update walaupun recently i faced an incident where me and my colleagues have been investigated by MCMC's officer for no fucking reason, (no need for me to explain since you can read it in news) i just want to wish y'all Selamat hari raya! I'm off to Kuch on 14th until 27th Sept. Yeah i know, lama kan? weeeee.. i'll be missing my fahmy so much. take care love. :)

It's been 5 years already. dah lama gua tak balik kampung halaman. rindu? nah..Kuch is not my real hometown. I would say kedah is my real hometown & kuching belongs to my mum. but sadly, nothing much we have in kedah now.. semua org dah takde.people that i knew passed away, their sons and daughters happily married and moved on to the big city and the youngsters.. gua bukan kenal pun. I guess we're not coming back.. there's nothing left there. so, yeah Kedah will remain as it is, a place in my heart that i shall never forget.

oklah. c u guys soon. salam aidilfitri.

xoxo. wakakaka!

*starting from today, i would sign off with xoxo just to annoy u guys especially u belle! haha!

goodbye love, you'll always be here, in my heart

Yasmin Ahmad (1958-2009) *pic google

I'm not fully recover to the fact that she's gone but i was relieved when i think of the opposite side, at least she didn't suffer the pain too long. I guess,God take all the good people with HIM this month, one after another,and this time its her's.it was a big lost tp..aku redha with what HE up there, plan for us. This note is nothing special-nothing ordinary, but i just want to share on what i feel about her.

Back from Kuala Terengganu, first thing i heard from Leeps is that Yasmin Ahmad has passed away. i couldn't feel anything, i guess my heart stop for a while. i couldn't get my eyes to sleep but tears keep running of my face.woke up next morning and hope it was just a bad dream until it was confirmed when i saw the bulletin news at 130 that noon.it was hard to believe that she left us too soon.

Secara jujurnya, i don't know her that well, meet her few times at film screening, religiously follow her blog since 2006..feel like knowing her luar dalam (by reading her blog?u must be insane? :P) but never spoke to her whenever i had the chance to.haih.. go blame the starstruck and butterflies in my stomach... but when she's gone, she did left a big hole in my heart.

its like losing a great inspiration that hurt me the most.

Despite all the mourning and cry, i guess life has to go on with or without her. She has taught us a lot..a great crafts that touches every human soul, a beautiful song, a meaning of life and i guess what she want us to do now is to cherish every moment in our life and share it with others without any prejudice. clearly, we can see all that through her works.

Bak kata Roul, my friend - "Allah pinjamkan dia.... utk kita belajar dan memahami... and He thinks it's done... we can think on our own..."

al-fatihah. tenanglah kamu disana, you'll always be missed.

before that, i pinjam and dedicate this song to you :)

tired & wasted

i was too tired to walk, eat or even speak.i just want to lay down and listen to fav song. that's all I need now. so, can I go back early, boss?

Rest in Peace, MJ

this is so cute. i think semua rehab centre or jail (maybe) should consider taking this activities as one of their programmes. maybe this could result to zero case of bullying in the centre. maybe they don't have time to bully each other. maybe.

i was browsing you tube, checking on MJ's video and stumble up with this cute video. i started enjoying this craze dance after i watched '13 going 30' and not because of MJ himself. haha. i remember when i was young, I'm afraid of watching 'thriller' video clip on tv. aku sgt takut dengan hantu/zombie/pocong/u named it... dari kecik sampai besar.

The world is still in shocked today by the sudden death of Micheal Jackson, the King of Pop. i myself can't believe the news this morning, i thought ami was joking. who joke about death anyway? everybody in the office is sad and mourn. belle said to me just now that she listened to MJ when she was young, singing and dancing to MJ's thriller repetitively sampai cd rosak. haha. mine is different, i listen to him when i grew up. i started dancing this craze dance of thriller when i get the chance. and i will not give up to dance again although you're gone. rest in peace MJ. we love you.

outdated issue, saya malas . . .

dah siap, pegi beli.. murah je

excited lebih :)

ceh! semua orang pura2 rajin berkerja bila i tangkap gambar

ariz pura2 buat kerja sambil memgelat tengok tv

si tukang cop + tukang masak

si tukang lipat + tukang cuci

tgh berselerak, tukang cuci pemalas . . . taknak kemas

finally,siap jugak akhirnya. phew!

packed and ready to go!

chaca nisha and nana pura2 ngantuk

ami sleepy + tak buat keja + asyik tido ja

The Good Body

" I am stepping off the capitalist treadmill. I am going to take a deep breath and find a way to survive not being flat or perfect. I am inviting you to join me, to stop trying to be anything, anyone other than who you are. I was moved by women in Africa who lived close to the earth and didn't understand what it meant to not love their body. I was lifted by older women in India who celebrated their roundness. I was inspired by Marion Woodman, a great Jungian analyst, who gave me confidence to trust what I know. She has said that “instead of transcending ourselves, we must move into ourselves.” Tell the image makers and magazine sellers and the plastic surgeons that you are not afraid. That what you fear the most is the death of imagination and originality and metaphor and passion. Then be bold and LOVE YOUR BODY. STOP FIXING IT. It was never broken"

- Eve Ensler, The Good Body

why so serious?

so yeah, last weekend i went to sunway pyramid with belle and little suriani jalan2 tanpa hala tuju. It was boring at home without ami disisi. incident happen, belle lost her wallet. we search for it, make police report, yada yada... and then we ended up at movie carnival at the basement floor. and i get this for my sayang.
a freakin' awesome dc joker-dark night 3D poster that ami wanted for so long... murah je original price dia, they have double up the price outside.sejak bile lah aku minat superhero2 ni..ok, joker bukan superhero.. so kira oklah. see, how love can change u..btw hope u like it baby :)

Manohara: I was treated like an animal

fuck u fuckry! fuck you.

Pete Teo, you're the man!

- this song called 'I go' , the original cover version sang by Aizat in Yasmin Ahmad's Talentime. written & composed by Pete Teo. I've been listening to this song repetitively,eversince I watched the movie.now it's officially became my current addiction.

So long, fare thee well
The dancer and the dancing days have taken leave and fell
So turn down this bed of stone
Quench me with the deadly nightshade from the rose that you belong

The long December rain is falling now
Running down on streets to nowhere
Music is my life you're my sweetest nightingale
But I can't hear it here no more
And I go
I go

Hush now, don't shake or break
Words have fallen silent like soldiers to the grave
No matter what they do or say
Lay me on the sleepy meadow by the tracks upon your face

- Words & Music By Pete Teo.